Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Sharing a girl with my wing: "You know I came in her mouth?"

This past Las Vegas trip really opened my mind to what is possible there.  I had always believed that girls free themselves from society's shaming there and that girls really do want sex as much as us guys do, this trip finally made me experience up close how true all these things really are.  It also has broken me out of an inner game rut that I've been in for awhile, and which I've written about happening the past few times I went out (including when I kissed that 21 year old two Saturdays ago).
Spur of the moment trip:
I liked talking about how I literally booked my Vegas flight less than 5 hours before take off.  Seagull had learned that he suddenly had the week off.  We talked about taking a trip but it looked like nothing was going to happen.  Suddenly, early Monday morning, a bunch of flights opened up.  The hotels were cheap for us so we decided around 3pm last Monday to go to Vegas.

Seagull pulled a girl each night that we were there together:
Just seeing this in person opened my mind to what is possible.  It's one thing to hear about others doing it or hearing stories from Nintendo or others.   Those people started at a higher level than Seagull and I did.  Seeing Seagull do this made me realize that I'm not that far from this level and it's just been my inner game issues holding me back.  I know how bad Seagull's game was when he started because I was going out with him back then.  To see him pull girls each night we were there was simply amazing.

The girl we shared:
This is a wild Las Vegas story that I don't really like to tell to people in my life other than close friends or wings.  A lot of these stories probably sound unbelievable to people who know me casually and haven't seen me out gaming.  For example, I texted one of my poker buddies about how Seagull pulled a new girl each night we were there, and his response was "how much did he pay?"  That was because to most guys who aren't good at game, it would seem like fantasy to be able to do this.  This story is similarly fantastic.

As I think back that night, I remember being in my hotel room with this girl.  Prior to this, I really thought there was a good chance I wasn't going to get any results this trip and in my mind, that would have been a waste of this trip.  The whole point of going on this trip with Seagull was to really game Vegas as we had always dreamed about doing.  I didn't want to play cards, which was an option, or just run half ass game for no results like I have been doing the past few weeks.  Suddenly, here I was with a decent looking newly minted 21 year old (she had said she turned 21 in December) in my bed.  I was fingering her and she was moaning in enjoyment when suddenly Seagull opened the door.

Now, the title of this story makes it seem like suddenly with did a 3 way, but alas this story isn't some crazy MMF porno story.  His part in this story would come a little later.  Once I realized he had opened the door, I just said, "Can you please come back later?"  I had neglected to text him that I was pulling to the room and this was the result.  It didn't really matter and Seagull commented to me later that seeing this girls titties when he opened the door was motivating.

I have a problem:
I guess another reason not to tell this story to people is that it's embarrassing on my part but I don't really care that much.  I told Seagull at one point,  "I keep thinking about how the Mikey character in 'Swingers' said, 'I didn't even want it [the scotch on the waitress' tray], I just wanted to order it."
What it meant for me here was that I just wanted to get the validation of being to get the girl to the room and I didn't even care that I actually did get to fuck her.

I really was just happy fingering her on my bed.  She wanted to fuck though, and I tried putting the condom on.  I put it in for literally like one second and then I couldn't keep it up.  I think it was a variety of factors.  First, I did drink too much.  I'm not sure if that's the issue.  The previous night,  I had drunk more and when I didn't pull I was able to get hard and beat off and I also did that the next night.  I'm sure it would have been easier had I been sober though (but it my self conscious state I had been in, I might not have had the confidence to make this happen).  The second issue is the condom and possibly a lack of lube issue.  Obviously, it's so much easier to have sex with no condom but I wasn't about to do that here despite my willingness last October to do so.  The third issue is some psychological issue.  Despite my desire for same night lays, maybe I do have an easier time if I actually connect with a girl and spend some time with her.  Another issue in my head is that I think I want to get the girl off more than I'm concerned about getting myself off and I don't relax enough . Even when I don't have wood problems, I often have a hard time finishing with girls I just met or when I'm having sex with a partner for the first time.

She got pissed because she didn't get the validation she sought:
The second time I couldn't get it up, she started to get dressed.  When I tried to touch her, she told me "Don't touch me, I'm turned off now."  You'd think that I would have been hurt by what happened but I really wasn't that upset.  I only regret that I wasn't able to give her a better time.  Strangely, I wasn't that hard on myself for what happened.  She asked me again in the elevator what the problem was and I told her that it was the condom.  She scoffed, "Safe sex make it hard for you?" or something to that extend.  I knew that she just was upset that the situation took away any validation she was getting from this as she felt inside that it was because I wasn't that attracted to her.

She wasn't that bad.  She was 5'9" and Seagull said she had a pretty face.  She turned around at one point in my room and was telling me she wanted me to fuck her from behind.  Now, I've been with girls way larger than her.  Her ass was small enough that  I wasn't turned off looking at her ass in that position.  I would have enjoyed having intercourse with her but it just wasn't possible that night.

Do you want to get laid?
The story doesn't end here. Seagull text me that I should come back out.  I decided I might as well as there was a small chance I could pull again.  I felt good having gotten this girl to my room and all my neediness I might have felt was gone now.  I went to CVS to get my Diet Arizona Iced Teas.  As Seagull and I were walking out, I suddenly saw her walking by.  I turned to Seagull and said, "Shit, I don't want her to see me."

Then, I told him, "You want to get laid? You should go open her.  She'll hook up with you.  She wanted dick and unfortunately, she couldn't get what she wanted from me."

It was obvious why she was still out.  Seagull was hesitant at first, but then he went along with it.  I wanted him to do it because it would make a cool story for this to play out.

He text me in a few minutes that he was pulling.  During that time, I had opened up some Latina girl who turned out to be a hooker.  She tried to get me to hire her but of course there was no way I was paying for sex.  I don't do that now because I feel worse because it makes me feel like I'm taking the easy way out, and I definitely wasn't going to do it when I just pulled a girl to my room.

Seagull told me later that they couldn't use her room because her friend and her mom were there (I had heard about the friend when I was with her).  He said he was bringing her back to our room.  I cautioned that she might recognize the room.  I suggested he take the back elevator to the room.   He did that and later he said that when they got there he told her, "Wait here a minute, the rooms a mess."  He then rearranged our luggage and made my bed so the room looked different.

He bang her once.  She wanted him to go again but like his previous night pull, he said he wasn't that into the girl, so he just let her leave.

"I came in her mouth" and other amusing bits:
I kept getting a good laugh out of our having shared this girl for the next day.  First, it was cool to be able to compare notes about what the girl said or how she wanted things.  The other thing was I enjoyed messing with Seagull.  I remember saying, "Hey, you made out with her right?"  He replied that of course he did, and I joked, "You know that she gave me a blow job and I came in her mouth, right?"

He got a bit disgusted and asked, "Are you serious or not?  I know she didn't brush her teeth in  between us."

I told him I was just joking, but I brought it up several more times in the next 24 hours.

The other thing that amuses me now is that as weird or crazy as this whole thing is, I know that I improved the girl's night by sending Seagull to hook up with her.  I felt bad that she wasn't satisfied \with me.  Again, I don't feel bad in that I feel inadequate as I know if the girl was hotter or if she had been more hands on with stroking me or blowing me, I probably could have gotten hard.  I felt bad in that Seagull said she was upset when he opened her.  Again, it really did hurt her that she felt she was the reason I couldn't get hard (which unfortunately was partially the truth).  By opening her, at least she got some proper dick.

Quick field report:
As I was about to post this, I guess I never explained how I got her up to my room.  This is another quick Vegas pull like that hottie I pulled back in October, but even quicker.  It's just another example of how girls buy into the Vegas commercial motto "What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas."  The girls really do let themselves be carefree and are way more opening into hooking up here that anywhere else.  Sure, you can get quick pulls at home: sometimes the girl is just ovulating, and/or she just broke up with her boyfriend and wants to hook up.  In Vegas, this attitude is way more prevalent to the point I might always be willing to say it's more the norm than not.

I was having a shitty trip, suffering from not being sure about myself and thinking about how badly I had regressed from my peak level of game in October, when I pulled that hot tall girl in front of Omnia.  Seagull had opened this two set in front of the Paris hotel, and I saw this brunette with a large nose piercing walking towards me.  I stopped her and immediately I could tell she was super high buying temperature.

I just remember telling her about the $1 drinks at Casino Royale.  I kept using this same spiel about how it's a remnant of the old school Vegas casino and not the new mega resort atmosphere.  I told her we were going there to get some beers.

As we were walking, her tit was popping out of her dress.  At one point, some girl told her, "Hey, your tit is hanging out."  She just smiled at this.  I had my arm around her and she would move my hand so it was on her breast.  Later, when I had my arm around her waist, she'd move my hand so it was on her ass.

We walked through Flamingo and I remember stopping by a palm tree in the Margaritaville part of the casino.  I wanted to keep her buying temperature up so I made out with her.  I also wanted to have a memory at that location future trips.  I made out with her and grabbed her ass and even touch her pussy (no resistance).  Obviously, I knew I was going to be able to get her to my room at this point.

Should I save $10?:
After the Flamingo make out, I knew I just needed to get her to my room.  She said she wanted to bring some drinks up to the room when I mentioned the room.  I knew there was a liquor store in the Linq, but I knew it was more expensive to buy it there than to go to the Walgreen's by Casino Royale.  When we were inside the Linq, I debated in my head and finally I decided, "Okay, I just gotta spend the money here.  I'm almost certainly going to get her to my room and hook up and it would be dumb to waste 15-20 minutes walking to Walgreens and possibly screwing this up.  She could lose buying temperature in the walk there, or her feet could hurt, or she could run into a friend."

I bought a bottle of Absolut Vodka for $35 and we went up to the room.  I gave my usual comfort lines even though I knew she was totally down for hooking up.  I said that just because we were going up to my room doesn't mean that anything has to happen.  I said I just want her to be comfortable and I'm cool if nothing happens.  These aren't even lines because I actually believe this when I say it and it actually does make girls more comfortable when I say this (which of course makes them more likely to want to hook up).

She had just wanted the drink as a reason to go up to the room.  She had less than a shot of the vodka before we were making out on the bed and I was helping her out of the dress.

It's funny that as I type this, I'm getting hard thinking about it.  I now wish I could have fucked her for real instead of just fingering her and being inside for 1 second, but I'm now confident that my next pull won't be that far in the future.  

Path to Thriving: Being social in general

I had a good Vegas trip last week that I will blog about soon.  The trip has inspired me to get my game to the next level.  As part of that journey, I've been watching some youtube videos, mostly from RSD.  I can't find the particular video now but it was obvious that I was fitting his definition of coping in my life versus thriving.  I can remember him saying that someone that is thriving aims to bring positive emotions to an interaction, creates value, and the third thing was basically calibrating to the situation.

The lesson I learned is one that I said I was going to focus on last summer after having the horrible AMOG set in Atlantic City last year, and something that I've said I've wanted to work on for years.  This old PUA I met years ago named "Dahunter" had posted he made a New Years goal for himself one year to talk to anyone within arms length to him.

The point is that I said I should be working on joking around or at least being social with everyone I interact with in general.  This way, I'm focused on talking to everyone and practicing being social instead of just being antisocial all week and then trying to transform myself into pick up mode for when I go out.  Besides being practice, it also makes it easier to just open a hot girl when I'm out since it would just be normal to me to talk to people around me in general.

Part of what's held me back is that I like to stream a lot of things on my phone.  I enjoying listening to the pundits on the news channels.  I mean, I really enjoy it as I'd listen to the same points on five different shows sometimes.  This past week, I've said that while I should listen to it sometimes, I don't have to listen to multiple shows every day.  Rather than sacrificing being social for listening to the shows, I should make a point to interact with people.

I still think I should make the goal to be to do this more often than not.  There are going to be times when I'm tired and don't feel like doing it or just that it's not convenient when I get up to the clerk or something.  Rather than want to give up because I made an impossible standard of doing it all the time, I'll just say that I should make it the norm that I do this.

I had practice today.  I got to the poker room early and I hadn't been there in a few weeks.  I decided to talk to some of the players.  I've always done that, but this time I forced myself to talk to one of the female dealers.  I'm not that attracted to her, but I knew it was good practice for when I actually wanted to talk to the one dealer to whom I'm attracted.  This interaction made me realize how it is just more fun to socialize in general.  I enjoyed talking to this dealer more than I would have enjoyed listening to my pundit show, and it is good practice for the future.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Kissed a 21 year old but I'm too hard on myself

Those inner voices can really mess with my head and self worth at times.  It's only after hitting the gym and reflecting on the night that I feel better about my evening.  I also attribute the sunrise with rejuvenating me.  While others feel crappy when they stayed up all night, I'm used this this schedule and even as I kid I enjoyed staying up all night.  Seeing the sunrise and having been up makes me feel like I've living my own life as I don't have to get up at this time instead like I would with a normal job and lifestyle.

It's great to be in a better place because I had some lows this evening.  I think it's mostly frustration with how much progress I've lost and how I let myself regress like this.  It's always the same challenge for me.  I get one or two things going great in my life and other aspects that are important to me atrophy.  In this case, I was on a high when I made my last post here in terms of pickup, and I basically didn't do anything in that area since.  I had a few decent moments but no lays and not much going out until a few weeks ago.  I also let my fitness slide but fortunately I've been making some gains in that the last two weeks.

I bring up fitness because being terrible in pickup (compared to where I was or feel I should be)  is similar to how I can't run my easy 10-12 mile runs anymore and I'm lucky that I forced a super slow 5 mile run today.  (I was having hard time with 3 miles just a few weeks ago).  I can't just make the sets click as easily and I don't feel the same confidence that I did just 8-9 months ago.

I do realize that I'm really being hard on myself.  I screwed up and let myself just be content with being alone but I've gained back a lot of what I've lost in just 4 times going out with Seagull.  The first night was terrible and I barely opened.  I opened a bit today but there were far too many times that I made excuses.

I had a good set today but rather than give myself any credit, I attributed it all to Seagull.  He did open this two set on the street in Wrigley.  These girls were super high buying temperature.  Seagull was making out with her literally within a minute or two.  He joked that my girl and I should do the same and her friend pushed for it.  I felt weird for two reasons: I have to admit I didn't feel like I deserved it, and I usually do like there to be some built up attraction before it happens.

We moved them to a venue across the street.  I felt like Seagull did the heavy lifting on that one.  I danced with the girl and then she said she had to pee.  I'm used to that being a bust out line but in this case she did seem to be having fun with me so I should have just lead her to the bathroom.  Instead I lead her to the friend, who was dancing with Seagull, and they left to the women's room.

Seagull proceeded to open up another set.  I tried to wing to no avail.  A three set opened him shortly after that.  He was on tonight in many ways, but he probably similarly was hard on himself because he didn't end up hooking up with a girl tonight.  Of course we're being way to hard on ourselves.  To go back the analogy above, I'm doing the equivalent of brow beating myself for not being able to run a marathon today even though I should be happy I'm at least back to 5 miles now.  His success lead me to a short state crash because I busted out several times in that same venue.

After he left a set downstairs, we saw our makeout girls from earlier at the bar.  Thinking back, I should give myself credit for pushing us to go open the set again.  I wasn't sure if mine still liked me, but I knew his girl was into him so I had him open them again.

We talked at the bar and then Seagull decided to venue change the girls.

Needy boyfriend Face time:
We got cockblocked by the needy boyfriend texting and calling her.  She's from out of town and she never told him that she came to Chicago for a visit.  He wanted to face time her and they had to go do that.  It was just bad timing.  If we had this set after that bullshit, we'd probably been on a glide path to a lay .

This whole thing is funny.  Some guys hate this situation.  As an AFC, I might have argued that hooking up with this girl might have been unethical, but the pickup community turned me completely around on this.  I don't have a problem with it.  I know girls often cheat on their boyfriend and I don't really care.  I didn't want her this guy she's been with for three years, I just wanna have some fun with her while she's on this trip.  Seagull told me later that the friend giggled about this girl getting some "birthday dick".  Lol.

Seagull's girl pushed him to take her number and then they had to rush off to do this Face time meeting.  I told Seagull he should work that but he wasn't too into making it happen.  Honestly, it's also a weak spot for us.  I've heard how some guys can text like that and make a meet up happen later that night.  One of my old wings was good at that stuff.

I wasn't confident enough for Round 3:
A little bit later, I saw the girls walk by.  I pointed them out to Seagull and he joked that two guys were following right behind them instead of leading them like we did.  Seagull did it more, but I was at least walking around outside holding my girls hand.

While at the gym, I realized the move was to open them again.  Now that the boyfriend was placated, the girls would have been free to celebrate my target's birthday.

21 year old girl:
As I'm typing this, I smile about this point of information.  As I mentioned, it was my target's birthday and she just turned 21.  It's pretty cool that I'm old enough to be her father and I still kissed her and had a chance to hook up with her if I had a bit more confidence and my skills weren't still in the rebuilding stage.

I said I've been hard on myself tonight, and I feel even better now as I finish this post.  I really did feel low though because I know I can do better than tonight.  I also am angry that I've allowed myself to be lonely for so long.  I shouldn't let it be acceptable to get laid on such an infrequent basis and I'm not getting any younger.

5 years flew by:
I've been fucking around for years instead of getting this part of my life handled.  I can't believe it's been 5 years since I met Nintendo that one summer.  That was a crazy year when I went out nonstop and I can't believe how I let my game get so weak.

Anyway, I think I'm determined now to make it right.  I'm fortunate that Seagull can go out most of the upcoming weeks this summer which I didn't think would happen again.

I need to push on and I need to also work on that challenge of being more friendly and talkative in my everyday life.  Again, I'm suffering from being introverted most of the week and then having to bring out my fun, outgoing self on the weekends when it would be way easier just to maintain it through the week so I don't need to be that much more outgoing.  My Asian PUA friend and Seagull can go out once or twice a week and be mostly on, but I can't so I need to make things easier on myself by forcing interactions during the week.

Wednesday, November 2, 2016

First Las Vegas Pull & a bunch of other firsts

It was my final night in Vegas.  The night before, I was feeling desperate.  It had been so long since I got laid that I was getting tempted to just get a hooker and that goes against all my principles concerning game.  I don't have a problem with guys doing it, but when I have passed up lays in the past with girls because I try to spend as little as possible, I feel really dumb just dumping cash on a transaction with a working girl.  I finally decided to motivate myself by saying I'd allow myself to get one if I really gave it my best effort Thursday night and Friday night.  This meant trying my best to open, escalate and pull instead of the half ass effort I made earlier in the night and how I kept letting my friend's inaction be an excuse for me not to try my best.

Thursday night, I had a mental reset when we returned from downtown and I had a crazy set that could use it's own blog post.  I opened up this girl who was walking by me in the Bellagio mall.  We wound up in the Bellagio women's bathroom where she said, "I'm not going to have sex with you in here but I told you I'm going to compensate you."  She was all lost from being drunk and because her boyfriend was too busy playing blackjack in front of Omnia rather than trying to find her.  I was nice enough to say I was going to lead her back there.  I was trying to pull her too but she made it clear we weren't going to hook up.

Yeah, I wish what she meant was that she was going to give me a blowjob but it turned out to be a funny story anyway.  She fished up this crappy coke that she bought from a street dealer.  She wanted me to do some with her.  I suppose if I were into drugs, this would be getting compensated well but I don't do drugs.  I told her I was good but I also said I don't judge and she could do it.

After that, we walked back to Caesar's and she thanked me.  She wanted me to take her number and I didn't want to at first, but I did as I figured it was a free roll.  It turns out she was flying out the next day but at the time, I figured if the dumb ass boyfriend got addicted to blackjack again, she might just want to hook up the next night.  It turns out she was flying out the next morning.  I was joking at the time that I was going to get good karma from this and it would turn out to pay off the next day.  

Two 2-sets that didn't happen:
Earlier in the night, I was with two chubby Greek girls that my friend winged me on.  They wanted me to give them money to gamble and when I wouldn't they decided to leave us.  Next, we got into a half hour set by the Harrah's with two Canadian girls, but they went to the bathroom and never returned.  At the time, I was disappointed that I couldn't make those sets work but I kept pressing on.

I almost didn't open her:
We walked across the street to Caesar's.  It was around 3am so I think a lot of people had left the club.  I was walking with my buddy when I turned around and saw this 6ft tall girl playing with her pink phone.  I hesitated initially with some negative thoughts.  "That girl is tall and too hot," I thought to myself.  I remembered the pact I made with myself about giving my best effort, so I literally said out loud, "Fuck it" and walked over.

A lot of the sarge is a blur but I do remember a few things.  I'm almost certain that I opened her walking up and putting my hand in front of the screen of her phone.  I do that a lot just to mess with girls who are playing with their phone.  I have trouble remember what I said after that but I think I messed with her about this being an all night town but she look ready to end the night.  I remember spinning her once.

OMG this is on!
The other distinct memory I have is of us hovering by the slot machines.  I remember there being this sudden moment where she gave me that look like she wanted to make out with me.  Fortunately, I wasn't a dumb ass like I have been many times in the past when I've had this moment and passed it up because I was too chicken to make a move.  I went in to kiss her and I remember being surprised about how passionately she made out with me.  She introduced me to some serious tongue action that she would continue on the rest of our time together.

I broke of the make out first as I knew that is the right move.  I remember learning early on that I'm supposed to be the one to broke it off so the girl will still be wanting more.  At this point, I remember thinking that I just need to get this girl to walk over to Bally's which is sort of a big kiddie corner away from where we were.

I remember that I started leading her away from the club exit and towards the nearest exit.  Fortunately, I know this casino area well as I frequent the poker room.  We alternated with us holding hands as we walked, and us having are arms around each other.  It's funny because she was so tall that when she had her arm around me, her arm was on my shoulders around my head, and I had arm around her back.  She had to learn down a bit so she could rest her arm on my shoulder.

The walk back:
She was slightly hesitant to actually go outside.  I remember telling that we should get some fresh air and I also remember saying, "Have you seen outside?  There's that absinthe area just outside (that's the name of an outdoor bar or something by the Caesar's entrance)."  She came outside and we sat down on this concrete mini wall.  She started to message someone on her phone.  I think she had been texting occasionally.  This time I saw some guy's name on the text.  I realized I needed to get her to stop checking the phone or I might lose this sarge.  (I remember seeing an RSD video talking about how they'd sometime turn the girls phone or take it away so the friends would screw up the sarge. I had one girl I pulled years ago that was made so much harder because she kept talking to her friend.)

I remember we started making out while sitting on this concrete wall.  I think this is when I started saying that we were going to check out Bally's.  I probably told her we could get some food.

I should add that I had watched this video from RSD Todd several times this week that talked about the keys to ONS game and Vegas.  This was important because my normal game often involves creating a connection with a girl about commonalities.  This time, I was trying to follow Todd's advice of quick kino escalation (finally got that right this set), and I was actively trying to disqualify myself.  I surely used one of his lines of, "I'm not boyfriend material."  I think I also said something like this after one of our make outs, "I'm total down for this, but let's just see what happens.  I just want to have fun!"

We started walking towards Bally's and I remember this was this short silence for about 10-20 seconds.  I remember telling myself, "Okay, I need to keep this fun and walking in silence isn't going to cut it."  I realized I just needed to talk so it would keep her entertained as we walked to my hotel.  I remember talking about Red Rock and I think I even showed her some pics on my phone.  At this part of the walk, I believe I also grabbed her phone and put it in my pocket.

Up to my room:
I remember going down the escalator that descends into Bally's.  Part of me couldn't believe that I had got this far.  I really started to believe this was going to happen.  I lead her past the front desk area, past some slots and to the elevator.  We went the elevator and we started making out.  I remember looking at her and saying, "Just because we're going up, doesn't mean anything is necessarily going to happen.  I just want to have fun and see what happens.  I don't want you to do anything you're not comfortable with."

I said this because this is old PUA technique.  If you don't say something like this, the girl often will. By saying it first, it makes her feel more comfortable.  She knows what it likely means if she goes up with you, but it makes her feel at ease that you're taking the pressure off by saying this, and you're taking the responsibility off of her for this happening.

As we were doing this, I guess I forgot to push a floor as the elevator door suddenly opened again as we were making out again, and I couple walked in.  I laughed and said, "Sorry" and then pushed a button.  The couple got off on an earlier floor and then we wound up on my floor.  I lead her to my room and I text my buddy to not come to the room.

On a side note: He's not used to going sarging with me so apparently he had been calling and texting me nonstop this entire time.  I just left him a quick text telling him not to come to the room as I pulled a girl.

I opened the door and lead her in.

Thinking back, I'm not sure the exact sequence of events.  I remember that I turned on the TV so there would be some background noise.  We probably made out standing up and then I brought her to the bed.  Part of me was thinking, "Wow, this is amazing that I have this smoking hot girl here in my room."  I remember how great of a kisser she was.  I remember us grinding our crotches together as we were kissing.  I remember kissing her neck and then moving my hand to her pussy to see how receptive she'd be to that.

Initially, she moved my hand away but I just went back to kissing and then when I tried again, she didn't resist.  I started to rub her clit and she started to get into it.

I've said to my wings that I used to like to eat girls out but over the past several years, I developed a rule for myself that I don't eat out girls that I just met.  Well, I guess that rule was easy to follow when I wasn't with girls I was really attracted to.  This girl, I just wanted to eat out.  I started kissing and licking her thighs and I put my nose on her underwear.  Sometimes girls have a funky smell which definitely would have made me not want to do it, but her pussy was perfect.  She smelled and tasted perfect as I kept wanting to go down on her.

This is great:
I won't continue with much more detail.  I will say that I kept thinking, "Wow this is awesome."  With girls in the past, they were either too fat, or there was some detail that I didn't like about that.  This girl was different that any girl I'd been with in the past.

First Vegas Pull
First Quick pull
First 6foot tall girl
First HB9 (This was the hottest girl I've ever hooked up with!)

I've always been crazily attracted to tall girls.  I love the long legs and how they tower over me.  I've had tall girls into me in the past, but I always managed to screw it up.  Also, unless I'm in state, I often am intimidated by them.  Tall girls and natural redheads are my white whales. (For those that don't know, this is a reference to the novel "Moby Dick" where the protagonist is consumed with this elusive white whale that he obsesses about finding.)  Those two types of girls are what I really am attracted to and what I always want to sarge.  I had be unsuccessful until this evening so they seemed so elusive, like the types of girl's I'd never get.

I remember how I just kept looking at her body and touching it and thinking how much I was enjoying this.  I couldn't see a flaw in her.  She was tall, young, and perfectly shaped.  Some guys would wish she had bigger breasts, but I was fine with her B cups.  I'd rather she have these than implants.  The only way I could have been turned on more is if she had been a natural redhead.

On top of all this, she was so into me.  I remember her laying next to me with her arms around me.  I'd start getting horny again and I'd touch her legs or grab her ass, or play with her tits, and then suddenly she'd be making out with me all passionately again.

This is why you get your own room:
So my friend started bothering me at the end.  He wanted to come into the room and get a hooker.  He actually had asked the front desk if they had rooms available.  He said they told him they had one for $100 something.  He said I should cover it.  I might have paid but what I didn't want to happen was me to pay for the room and then have her take off.  She initially said she'd stay.  I tried to see if I could go to her room, but she didn't have her own room and it sounded like she was staying with her family (she had said earlier that she was there for her cousin's wedding and was there with family).  I told my friend to just come it (I mentioned this to her and she didn't seem to care).  He felt weird and then started worrying that she might be uncomfortable waking up and being in a room with two guys.
After this commotion of me talking to my friend on the phone, she decided to check her phone.  Her sister had been blowing up her phone as much as my friend had done to me.  I watched her scroll through like 3 pages of text messages.  She decided she had to go.

If I had my own room, I probably would have kept messing around with her all night.  Damn!



 I haven't written much as I got less focused on sarging in order to fix other aspects of my life.  This year, there were several close unexpected situations where I should have gotten laid but managed to screw them up.  One of them was a surprise set with this girl at the front desk at my hotel in San Antonio that it turns out had just broken up with her boyfriend.  I was proud that I got as far as I did when I hadn't gone out in months.  Another near lay was with this tiny Latina in Atlantic City.

Over the summer, I was too busy with work to really do any sarging.  There were two girls that seemed to be into me but weren't attractive.  There was this hottie that I developed a sort of mentor relationship that I probably could have hooked up with if I weren't so out of practice.

As the summer winded down, I finally got time to start going out again.  I've been in Vegas a lot but I sadly hadn't pulled.  Most of the time, I was just trying to grind out money at poker or enjoying vacation value without concentrating on picking up girls.

This all changed last week when I finally got to experience Vegas as a tourist as I went there with a childhood friend.  The trip started out with a bunch of lucky that I kept saying meant I was going to pull by the end of the trip, but near the end of the trip I started to doubt if that would be true.

Sunday, May 24, 2015

I need to be a closer & Going for hotter girls Sat & Momentum for Vegas

There's a bunch of days I could have analyzed in detail here but I just didn't have time.  I realized Friday that my biggest problem is that I haven't been a closer.  I haven't been escalating fast enough at times, and I haven't done that many serious attempts at pulling.  I've settled for phone numbers when I should have went for the pull.

I had a fucked up night Friday where some asshole used a screwdriver to unlock my car door, probably because he thought I had a phone in there, when it really was just a light from the car charger.  The person even dumped out my gym bag in the trunk and found nothing.

The good thing about Friday is that I hung out with two guys that are closers.  I need to find out what nicknames they used or just create names for them as I'm sure I'll be hanging out with them more.  One of them is a guy that I met last year but didn't get to sarge with due to my travel arrangements and then me disappearing for the winer.

I started with day game at Target and just seeing other guys being confident in this situation made me take action in the twenty minutes I was there.

Later, the guy I met last year pulled from a street set that he opened as we were walking by.  I don't know if he got laid but it went well enough that he disappeared for the night.

Hanging out with those guys made me realize that I've just been holding myself back.  I've been in this too long to not be having more pulls.  Several of these sets that went well over the past 2-3 weeks could have been pulls if I had been more of a closer.

Training & Momentum for Vegas:
That was what I said I was going to do Saturday.  I ended up only being out for 3.5 hours.  I didn't get deep enough into any sets to try to pull but I did take more action that usual.  I opened a bunch of tall girls in the club that I often wouldn't have opened.

I've made this observation before, but I do get better results from these girls that I do when I think I'm opening a "easy" set by opening some less attractive girl.  The girl that stuck in my mind was this 6 foot tall (she was taller than that with heels) thin blonde.  She was totally my type.  I just started dancing by her and locked eye contact and than started talking.  She was super friendly and I found out she was visiting from Kansas City.  I mentioned this restaurant where I won an eating contest and she recognized it and she started touching my arm when I told her I won a team eating contest there.

The set got messed up when the alpha girl came and dragged the set away.  It was a 5-6 girl bachlorette set.  My mistake was that instead of going back in 5 mins with Disney, who was going to try to use the bottle service deal to move them to another bar, I said we should wait a bit longer.  We ended up not being able to find them so they must have left shortly after I had talked to them.  That makes it even dumber that we didn't go back because they might have come next door for the free bottle service.

Besides opening tall girls, I made myself open on the dance floor.  I've been writing often how I'm scared to open on the dance floor.  Tonight I finally got leverage on myself and said that I need to stop caring about if I get rejected or not and just do it.  It wasn't that difficult and this cute pixie (meaning short and thin) girl was receptive at first.  She then said she wanted to go back to her friends.  I think my mistake was that I should have dance with her and then danced with the rest of the group and then returned to her.

Disney had to leave around 1am.  I decided to leave with him as he talked about checking some other place out but then decided he had to head home.  I walked around and went in another venue.

I danced with two girls but that didn't go anywhere.  I opened some other girls but then I left to wander and do street game.  I kept wishing I had a wing because I just didn't believe that I was going to pull a girl from street game when all I kept seeing were 2 sets or 4-5 girl sets wandering around.

I decided to head home early so I could stop at Walmart to get some last minute things for the trip.  I figured I could push harder in Vegas and it'll be easier.

I really hope I can pull tomorrow night.  We're only going to be there Sunday and Monday night. We are taking the red eye Tuesday/Wed midnight.

At the very least, I need to give a solid effort to pull. Vegas is supposed to be the easiest place to get SNL's.  I should have basically unlimited sets to pull if I keep working it.

The two guys I'm going with are more excited about getting drunk.  I'm going to let myself have 3-5 drinks at the start and then just stop or do 1 drink an hour.  I don't mind having a buzz but I cannot get fucked up or I won't pull.

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Don't flog myself: work on fast escalation and pulling

This was going to be the concluding point in the last entry but I think it deserves it's own entry.  Tyler says that too many guys flog themselves too much.  I'm guilty of that.  I've mentioned how this attitude has helped me but I know from experience that too much of it hurts.

Saturday night was a good night and shows how close I am to having even better nights. My nightly experiences are showing me that I can create strong attraction every night, usually in multiple sets, and there are pull opportunities that I keep missing out on.  Sometimes it's due to bad logistics and that's just bad luck.  Maybe from my analyses, I can figure out something that will help me solve those logistics in a similar, future encounter.  Sometimes, or maybe often times at my current skill level, it's just because my pulling skill is lacking.

I'm going to watch and rewatch videos on pulling.  It's like any other skill in the game.  I have to learn and practice.  As I do both, I'll develop the calibration to do it better.

Over the next two weeks, I should really focus on trying to pull, even if it means busting on a set that I might have been able to set a Day 2 on.  Jlaix said the other key is that you have to have the confidence to make a "bold move" to pull instead of just being comfortable with the limited success/attraction you got from the set.

Now, I need to practice this to improve my overall skill set, but since I'm going to Vegas in two weeks, I need to get fast escalation down and have the confidence to pull, or I am not going to get laid there.  Well, to be fair, things are supposedly easier, but my pull skills and fast escalation skills are my limiting factor.

I guess the other factor about Vegas is that if I do 10pm type talk like I did with Seagull's set that he left, at least I'll get a shitload of other sets to correct myself on and still have many more chances to pull.  At the venue tonight, I missed that opportunity and there was only 1-2 other girls to try.